[IC] To be inserted into Kyr timeline later

[hunting]

[Being a perma-leopard has helped Lyncis' blood cravings, but it's yet to make any decent dent on his mentality, which has been trapped in a cycle of self-resentment since he attacked Argus. That stupid dream with shadow!Argus hadn't helped either. He feels less of a danger to Barghest now, but can he really remain a leopard forever? The Caregiver had been unsure about how much time Lyncis needed.

So today finds Lyncis studying himself in the portion of the river closest to the abandoned town.]

Comments

[compensate]

sO yOU'Re gOnnA stAY thAT wAY fORevER?

iT wOn'T sOLve anYthINg.

[hunting]

[Jerks his head back around with a sigh]

What else am I supposed to do? Last time was you. What if next time it's Pyxis? Or someone not even on Barghest? I can't be like this! I can't be a monster!

[compensate]

i tOLd yOU, i wASn'T ANgrY.

whAT hAppENed dOEsn'T mAke yOU a mONstER.

[hunting]

... I know you weren't angry.

I don't want to be another of those people who mistreat you like in your memories.

[compensate]

[ just gonna sigh, as he bumps him with his fist - a mockery of a punch, though it barely registers ]

yOU AReN't. iF yOU wERE, yOU wOUldN't bE OUt hERE mOpINg.

[hunting]

[Going to nose that in return]

I'm not moping. I just... I don't know what to do about that hunger. If it's what I... it's not going to go away. When I attacked you... the sated feeling barely lasted a week. And the hungrier I am, the less control I have. It's like there's nothing but fog and red and the sound of heartbeats. A beast no different from this.

[compensate]

[ face scritches :vv ]

sO iF yOU dO iT OftEN, thEN yOU wON't lOse cONtrOl, rIGHt?

[hunting]

[Blinks a bit and ruffles instinctively in his throat, as well as nudges those fingers some. A big cat is still a cat after all.]

... it does make it easier to think again. I felt more like myself after... last time.

[compensate]

thEN ASk fOR hELp, ANd wE'll hELp.

[hunting]

You don't find it disturbing?

[compensate]

[ ah, so it's like that. he pauses for a bit, like he's trying to think of how to best explain. ]

i dON't rEALLy gEt iT ANd iT wAS wEIRd ANd hURt, bUt iF iT's yOU, i'm nOt gOnnA rEsENt yOU fOR sOMethINg yOU cAN't hELp.

yOU nEEd iT, yOU'Re mY frIENd ANd thAT's All i cARe abOUt.

[hunting]

[Maybe he will just stare at Argus for a moment since feelings

Then there will be a giant cat rubbing his head under Argus' chin because that's a lot easier than figuring out what to say]

[compensate]

[ all the pets, since he's honestly more on board with this not sharing your feelings bullshit ]

[hunting]

[Verbally expressing things is for losers]